A Little Contemplation on Why I Always Find Exceptional Joy In Worship

Author : Harvian

If, I were to be asked, "When do you feel the most alive?"
I would surely reply with, "It is at the moments when the extravagant worship happened. When the heaven's doors are opened, and when we look up it feels like the Lord is so close we could touch Him. When people's hearts became as one no matter the races, dispositions, even religions. I could trade days of boring routines with only few hours of those. When it happens, it is always life-changing."

Psalm 84:10a
Better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere.

Why do worship make us enter such a blissful circumstance? Why do we just want to kneel our feet down upon getting so immersed in worship?
My soul aches to understand those.

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One answer that I obtained is, that it is the original purpose of our being.
We were meant to serve the Lord all day all night as in Rev 7:15, which by worship as a form, depicted in Rev 8-9.

Each time a worship with the wholeness of heart occurs, our spirit rejoices in the fact that the activity itself is our true calling.
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Prophecy : August 2016

Less than half of 2016 is left,

Less than.... what time is remaining in God's clock--until His second coming--is left.

We were always warned and warned again by how far the time is closing, and that we must truly pursue God's ways.
Somehow, the Lord urged me to write this down : you don't have to feel ashamed or unworthy if you need to be reminded over and over again.
Just simply come and abide His call whenever it may be.
Again, DO NOT feel unworthy and shun His Presence as a result. It in itself is the demons' trickery.
Who are we to judge our worthiness?
Our identity is based on His view towards us : which is clear, the loved ones.
Nobody is worthy from the start, nobody is holy enough to even hold simple conversation to Him, but we ARE MADE worthy. WE ARE MADE HOLY.

Herewith are list of what Sister Felicia got from the Lord at 31st July, 2016 :
  • August will be a month of war
  • A great turmoil will shake up the earth/natures
  • Pay attention to the world of politics : persecution will come to God's chosen people, but He will show His favor upon them and do miracles
  • Starting from August 16, He is moving/rending His angels to do the 'world wealth transfer', Prepare your cups and wineskins.
  • Healing upon families and bodies of Christ will come. He asks His children to pray earnestly and weep for this to happen! "Your tears will be the price. They will be the salve to anoint the eyes of unbelievers" (Revelation 3:18)
  • The Bull's market is going to come to an end
  • Children of God should temper their hoes, sickles, and tools and make them into swords, lances, and bows.
  • The enemy will send a flood of terror and troubles. Only those who hide under God's Presence will be able to endure and get into the next level.
  • Feet! Shoes of Peace and Readiness! It's time to upgrade them! (Ephesus 6:11)
Based on Israel calendar, this year is Ayin (eye) Zayin (hoes).
Year of many works to be done and wars to be fought.
Furthermore, our hoes--our talents, our gifts--are to be tempered to swords and warfare equipments. That can be achieved by using our expertises for the glory of God. Have we really surrendered our talents to the Lord? Pray to the Holy Spirit and He will direct you on creative ways to use tools for God's glory.

If the enemy can't tackle you down, they'll wear you out. Therefore, seek always refreshments from God.

Don't treat God's solution like our problem. Grunt not, do first and then your heart will follow.

Forerunner : you've been given sight so that you could run before others. For example just like Joseph and Daniel.

You can access these links below for more prophecies in line with the ones above.

to use talents God trust us with for His Glory :

great wealth transfer :

tears as cost of victory :
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Warning : Another Glimpse of Hell

I was deep in prayer for weeks and was just starting my first day of fasting when a set of vision came unto me.

It was at night time.

I felt everything around me turned into flames, I could even feel the scorching heat a little.

And this particular verse crossed my mind :

"They will throw them into the fiery furnace, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth."
Matt 13:42

 Just when I thought everything was already horrifying to begin with, I realized I was not alone.

 Some little jet-black creatures, like big-sized rodents pass through me, sending quite a chill.

But then, I began to realize that I had a Particular Figure beside me : no other but the Lord Jesus Himself!

 I relaxed a little, but realization dawned on me that this was not going to be any one of those feel-good visions.

 In fact, I was seeing Hell.

 After the swarms of the creatures ended with the biggest one sized like a bull trying to get its way along me and God, we began to move on.

 There, we stumbled some kind of gothic-styled gate. I noticed the name is written on the ragged board hanging above the gate, but I couldn't make any readings about it aside of "Valley." The words following it are unidentified.

We made our way through the gate and what I saw there is the very definition of grotesque.

Torture equipments are all around in various kinds.

In front of me, a man is continuously stabbed by a giant spike each time a mechanical wheel spins.

He screamed, and screamed more each time it happened. The loop is endless.

Then, we went into a higher ground, and saw some place that was partly covered in ice.

A man is shot by some ice spikes right into the throat.

Then, all the visions stop.


Good brothers, I prompt we take more time to draw closer to the Lord.
Afterlife only has two destinations, Heaven and Hell.
Which are real. Both of them.
The time is closing.

Jesus is coming for the second time.
We are living in the edge of the age.

Spend time wisely.
The world is turning not into the direction of the Lord's.
Spend no time criticizing other believers or even worse your spiritual leader.

The black bull-sized creature trying to get its way between me and the Lord in the vision symbolizes how much the devils want us to be apart from the Lord.
They will try everything they can to make our connection, or, intimately speaking, relation, with God crumble.
And we are not to let them do what they want.

Be assertive in choosing things that will please the Lord.
Horror movies are certainly not pleasing Him.

Be strong, and distinguish what comes from the Lord and what doesn't.
Read Bible and take time to contemplate, and then be a doer as well.

No form of servings is not seen by the eyes of the Lord.
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Don't Let Your Tower of Babel Get Built

Author : Benedictus Harvian

            “Juga kata mereka: “Mari kita dirikan bagi kita sebuah kota dengan sebuah menara yang puncaknya sampai ke langit, dan marilah kita cari nama, supaya kita jangan terserak ke seluruh bumi.”

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            Apa Saudara familiar dengan kutipan Alkitab tersebut?

            Yup. Benar. Kutipan tersebut berasal dari Kitab Kejadian 11, dengan judul perikop ‘Menara Babel’. Alkisah, populasi umat manusia di seluruh bumi hanya memiliki satu bahasa dan logat. Mereka menetap di satu lokasi yang sama, yang disebut Sinear atau Babilon.

            Peradaban dan kebudayaan berkembang pesat. Sistem pendirian bangunan yang tadinya hanya menggunakan batu, berkembang menjadi menggunakan batu bata dan ter. Dan pada saat itulah muncul pikiran untuk membangun menara yang menjulang tinggi mengatasi semuanya. Untuk apa, kata mereka?

“..marilah kita cari nama, supaya kita jangan terserak ke seluruh bumi.”

Kelanjutannya, seperti yang kita sudah ketahui sendiri, Tuhan mengacaubalaukan bahasa mereka yang tadinya satu menjadi berbagai macam. Pembangunan menara Babel tersebut pun gagal.

Apa yang dapat kita tarik dari kisah tersebut?

Sehari sebelum saya menulis renungan ini, Tuhan memberikan suatu vision ketika saya sedang berdoa. Pada landscape roh saya, saya melihat banyak sekali—ratusan, mungkin—menara-menara. Dan menara tersebut tidak memancarkan suasana yang agung dan damai layaknya sesuatu yang berasal dari Tuhan. Sebaliknya, menara tersebut memancarkan kesombongan, ego, kepentingan diri sendiri, dan fitur-fitur kedagingan lainnya.

“Apa itu, Tuhan?”

Roh Kudus memberikan pengertian bahwa menara tersebut adalah menara-menara Babel yang telah saya biarkan dibangun di dalam diri saya. Di dalam jiwa maupun roh saya. Bagaimana menara tersebut dapat dibangun?

Ternyata, yang menjadi katalis dibangunnya menara tersebut adalah acap kali kita merasa mampu tanpa Tuhan, kecewa dengan rencana Tuhan, merasa sudah paling benar, merasa pencapaian kita adalah berkat usaha kita sendiri, dan masih banyak lagi sifat kedagingan lainnya. Itulah masalahnya pada kasus saya. Dengan kata lain, kesombongan. Cari nama seperti yang dikatakan pada pembangunan menara Babel. Kalau begitu apa yang sebaiknya menjadi sikap hati kita?

Bibit kesombongan memang akan ditebar, baik oleh sifat kedagingan kita sendiri atau oleh si jahat. Tapi tergantung kita apakah akan memupuk dan memelihara bibit tersebut hingga tumbuh besar dan subur, atau sebaliknya minta Tuhan untuk bersama-sama mengecek hati dan roh dan minta Ia mencabut bibit-bibit tersebut.

“Berjaga-jagalah dan berdoalah, supaya kamu jangan jatuh ke dalam pencobaan; roh memang penurut, tetapi daging lemah.” –Mat 26:41

Ya. Minta Tuhan cek hati kita lagi dan lagi. Karena percayalah, kesombongan pada akhirnya akan menjatuhkan kita sendiri. Pada sisi sebaliknya, kerendahan diri juga merupakan bentuk kesombongan. Seorang pendeta pernah bercerita bahwa kesombongan dan kerendahan diri adalah layaknya gunung dan lembah. Keduanya sama-sama dapat membuat kita jatuh.

At the end of the day, setelah aktivitas kita, luangkanlah waktu berkontemplasi dengan Tuhan. Buka hati, dan terima koreksi-koreksi dari-Nya. Kadang kita cenderung membenarkan diri sendiri, tapi percayalah bahwa Ia tahu lebih dari Saudara.

Pada sisi lain, cerita mengenai menara Babel juga berarti satu hal. Persatuan atau yang biasa disebut unity adalah suatu hal yang luar biasa penting. Selain itu, komunikasi juga. Bagaimana tidak, ketika bahasa dipecah-belah, pembangunan menara tersebut langsung terhenti tanpa ada bekasnya lagi.


“Janganlah kita menjauhkan diri dari pertemuan-pertemuan ibadah kita, seperti dibiasakan oleh beberapa orang, tetapi marilah kita saling menasihati, dan semakin giat melakukannya menjelang hari Tuhan yang mendekat.” –Ibr 10:25
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